My daughter, Alicia, was born deaf but not diagnosed until 18
months. At that time she was found to have a severe to profound sensorineural hearing loss
and was fitted with two hearing aids. The hearing aids gave her some usable hearing and we
quickly plunged into the world of special education, total communication, and hundreds of
other experiences we never could have imagined. At age 6 it was determined that
Alicias right ear was "dead", not able to process sound at all . She was
fitted at that time with a programmable hearing aid, and what followed was a wonderful
year of hearing at a much improved level. Throughout this time Alicia was mainstreamed
into a regular classroom at our neighborhood school. In April of 1997 Alicia experience a
sudden, unexplained drop in her hearing. Even with her hearing aid she was no longer able
to hear most of the sounds she had for the last year.
We have always presented Alicia with a total communication setting. She has been
exposed to sign and voice from the very beginning and has for the most part chosen to be
an oral child. She seemed to realize from a very early age that if she signed to most
people, they were not going to know what it was she wanted. Receptively, she has relied on
sign in the classroom and we have always used it as a backup for times when she was unable
to understand the verbal communication. When Alicias hearing dropped to the level
where hearing aids were no longer providing adequate amplification we were faced with what
we saw as four options, 1) change to using sign as our main means of communication with
Alicia, 2) continue to use a total communication method stressing oral communication, 3)
stress oral communication only, 4)investigate a cochlear implant and continue with either
total communication or oral communication.
I want to stress that I am a firm believer that there is no one "right"
answer for the best means of communication for a deaf child. Each situation is different
and every family needs to carefully evaluate what is best for them and their child. We had
to be honest and realistic about our expectations, our strengths and weaknesses as a
family and our ability to adjust to the various options. This isnt an easy process
for anyone and it was one of the most stressful processes weve had to go through.
The first option, relying on sign alone, did not seem realistic to us. The main concern
with switching to a completely sign based language with her was a social concern. It
seemed unrealistic to us to assume that everyone Alicia meets in her life will learn to
sign to communicate with her. Even her family (immediate and extended) has not gotten
beyond rudimentary signing during her life. At school, learning isnt a problem if
there is an interpreter, but communicating with hearing friends is difficult if not
impossible if there is not a common method of communication. For our family, this was just
not the right choice.
The second and third options were more realistic since they would involve the least
amount of change both for Alicia and for our family as a whole. It also would give Alicia
the ability to continue to communicate in the mode with which she was most familiar. These
options seemed possible, but we new that it would mean a huge commitment of time and
effort. Learning to communicate orally with a profound hearing loss and little or no
amplification can certainly be done, but in most cases its not easy. Knowing the
personalities in our family and Alicias strengths and weaknesses, this option
didnt seem to fit our needs either.
This left the fourth option- a cochlear implant. I knew other children who have
implants and had been impressed with their progress, but had never considered it as an
option for Alicia. As much as I wanted my daughter to be able to continue to be very oral,
there was still a part of me that felt I was somehow attempting to "fix" my
daughter and that I was making a decision for her that no one should make for another
person. The whole idea of surgery was frightening- and as educated about hearing loss as
we were, this seemed to be a real step into the unknown. After much thought, we decided to
go ahead with the pre-evaluation for an implant.
This was a very frustrating time, much like the time when we first learned Alicia had a
hearing loss. As parents, my husband and I wanted very much to do something right away.
However, things dont always work that way. We were fortunate to be able to get a
referral fairly quickly from out audiologist and ENT to go to House Ear Institute. We were
also fortunate that House Ear is relatively close by (about a two hour drive). It took
about a month to work through the insurance issues and getting appointments made for the
implant screening. I know now from talking to other parents that this was really pretty
quick- but at the time it seemed like forever. The screening supported what we already
new. Alicias hearing had dropped to a level that made her a good candidate for an
implant. Also in her favor were the fact that she had had good amplification in the past
and was used to sound. The hardest thing for us to deal with was that because her left ear
had never had any exposure to sound, the surgeon recommended implanting the ear that did
have some residual hearing. We had hoped that this wouldnt be the case- that they
would be able to implant the ear where we weren't "taking away" any hearing. Now
that we had all the information, we had to make a decision. Although we new the risks were
minimal and the benefit most likely would be great, this was still not an easy decision to
make. But, in the end, after talking with many people about the doubts, we decided to go
ahead with the surgery.
The other decision to be made was which brand of implant to get. Most people (other
than the company reps) said that there was no noticeable difference in performance between
brands. After reading information on all the brands available and talking with the
audiologists we decided to use the Clarion brand implant. The main reason for doing this
was that at the time it was the only implant FDA approved for use in children- the other
brands were still in FDA trials. The practical advantage to this was that with the
approved implant we wouldnt have to follow any set protocol as far as follow up
visits and testing but could proceed based on Alicias progress. Also, the main
headquarters for Advanced Bionics (who make the Clarion implant) is located within a few
hours drive of us. Somehow having a "local" company made me feel more
comfortable.
Alicias surgery took place first thing in the morning on July 21, 1998.
Everything went smoothly and she was sent home the same afternoon with a big bandage
around her head and not in a very good mood. The large bandage came off within a day or
two and then she was left with just stera-strips holding the incision together. She was
most upset that the side of her head had been shaved, although because she has long hair
it really wasnt very visible. The hardest thing for all of us was that she now had
no hearing at all. Communication was a struggle and we were all stressed by the whole
situation. Alicias grandparents volunteered to come and stay with her during the day
so that my husband and I could return to work when needed, but by the next Monday, Alicia
seemed ready to go back to her summer camp program. The only setback came the following
Thursday (10 days after the surgery). Alicia woke up in the morning with the entire side
of her face swollen up. We immediately called House Ear and they said to bring her in
right away- this was definitely not normal. It turned out that she had gotten a very
severe infection which caused the incision to pop open. It was painful for Alicia and
there was talk of the possibility of having to put her in the hospital or of having to go
back in and redo the implant. I felt guilt at this point because this was all the result
of the surgery and now Alicia was in pain and unhappy. Luckily, the infection cleared with
antibiotics (and quite a few trips back and forth to House Ear) and we were able to go
ahead and proceed.
Alicias first mapping took place over three days (Monday, Tuesday, Friday), a
month after surgery. She was a real trooper- the mapping is a long, tedious process. The
audiologist made if fun by incorporating games, but it was still a drain. For the most
part things went very well. Alicia had some discomfort with one of the electrodes, but
they were able to set the map at a level that allowed her to get a good amount of sound
right from the beginning. Alicia adjusted to it very well and just sort of took it in
stride that she had some sound again. Between the Tuesday and Friday visits she told us
she heard birds chirping and keys jangling in the car! These were sounds she hadnt
ever heard even with her best amplification. On Friday, the audiologists did some
discrimination testing and Alicia was able to discriminate between various words with only
auditory information. This was really exciting! It was clear that the implant was doing
what it should and Alicia was adjusting well to it. The audiologist said that this was the
progress they would normally expect to see at the one month visit.
Two weeks after her initial mapping, Alicia started back to school. She had used an fm
system in the past with her hearing aids, but the audiologist recommended that she not use
one at this time so that she could get used to hearing the real environmental sounds.
Alicia also has an aide in the class who signs to her so she was able to keep up to speed.
Although some people are insistent that an implanted child not receive any signing (the
thinking being that they will continue to rely on the "easy" signing rather than
trying to focus on listening), we chose to continue to sign when necessary with Alicia.
Having a history of how Alicia dealt with a total communication environment we were pretty
sure that this would continue to be a successful approach with her.
It turned out to have been a good decision to go with an implant that didnt
restrict us to a set protocol and testing. At her last appointment- two months after the
initial mapping, the audiologist said that they had progressed to a level that they would
have expected at six months and that there would be no need for visits for a while unless
there were any problems. Alicias speech is noticeably improved. She has told her
aide in class that she doesnt need to sign for her at specific times during the day
since Alicia is able to follow some of what is going on based on just her auditory input
now. Alicia is able to communicate better with her friends. She is hearing sounds that we
thought she would never hear- thunder, the dog panting, a door squeaking. Alicia is now
able to use the phone in some situations, which we didnt think would ever happen!
She still has difficulty with the soft voices of some of her friends, but does great with
Mom or Dad. Its so exciting to see her able to participate in an activity that the
rest of us just take for granted.
So, thoughts from Mom at the three-months post "turn on"...getting a cochlear
implant for Alicia was without a doubt the right decision. There are still moments when I
find it strange to realize my daughter is walking around with this "thing" in
her head and hooked up to a speech processor, but I think this is more my issue than hers.
Alicia is still deaf and she always will be, but her life has been so enriched by being
able to hear with her implant- its just amazing. When I see Alicias face as
she dances around to music that she can now hear- I know it was all worth it.